My heart is beating like its bleeding out… You’re sleeping like a baby….
Cardi’s new album is probably perfect for every situation.
Staying strong everyday when all I want to do is give up is the hardest thing I have ever experienced.
It is the actual summation of my life.
How on earth have I still made it without killing myself or being committed(again)?
I just want out. I just want it to end.
It has never ever been that easy.
How did I get here? and why?
I have many ideas. I am sure they all play a role.
But this can’t be how it ends or what defines me….
And I am so tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally and figuratively, so tired.
I am just totally and completely naive.
And totally lost and hopeless and helpless and scared and anxious and worried and sick and just a mess. I do not know what to do.
Just kind of waiting for some universal guidance.
Dear Universe or God or Aliens, whoever is listening–
I am ready for it. Please take control.
I have done all that I can do.
I am hungry for so much more in life.
I won’t settle for this.
Woke up so sick today,
Stress is literally killing me.