I am a hostage. I was diagnosed with Bi Polar Disorder during a 36 day stay in rehab for drug addiction. That was over 10 years ago in 2009 and I will say that only now am I really learning … Continue reading A Hostage Situation.
I don’t know where to start but I do know that I avoid writing because I do not want to confront these real situations and feelings in my life. If you follow me on social media, you’ll see that I … Continue reading A shit show. Blo[g][po]etry.
Don’t ever let somebody, especially in a relationship, make you feel like your feelings aren’t valid. There is nothing worse than being in a relationship and feeling alienated from it. Sure, anybody can be overreactive at times and turn small … Continue reading Being Alone Is Better Than Not Being Heard.
So I haven’t written about this in a full on way, aside from school work pertaining to the COVID-19 pandemic and I just wanted to rap about a few things. 1. The media. Ok, I get it, absolutely! The media … Continue reading Toilet Paper & Meat Shortages Oh My…
I am bothered. My relationship ended for the last and final time and it has taught me a lot of lessons. Like, never settle, never feel like you need to be a certain way for somebody to like you, you … Continue reading Don’t date down in emotional intelligence.
Sadness fills my eyes and runs down my cheeks and pools beneath me in a bottomless void loneliness wraps its arms around me cold and empty my old friend broken pieces is what I feel like I have become mangled … Continue reading mood translated to words (I’m good)
Lonliness here we are againThink I would have learned To nieve and to caringTo trust againAnd yet I just cant help myself Beginning to see clearlyThings will never changeTheres no reason to tryNot if its only on one side This is not what I expectedBut also exactly what I expectedMy heart wasnt even healed from beforeThe pieces again just easily tore Pushed asideNo team in mindSo quickly the script changesOur whole life, we’ll just rearrange itFake it How can I even be madI should have known this would beThe outcomeBut still, im sad Its hard to existAnd to know what … Continue reading Lonliness and poetry
I know, I fall off from writing like nobody’s business. Truth is, I still have some big fun plans but the semester smacked me right in the face as my hardest semester yet! Now that things are all ‘covidy’, and … Continue reading Yikes… hey!
I totally understand the drive and motivation to find love and somebody to share your life with, I do! As a libra, I am not meant to be alone… but also at this point in my life I am realizing … Continue reading Self-Love Rant.
Several times today on social media from various platforms, and different friends and acquaintances and people that I do not even know, a similar theme was arising. “I am nervous/scared that people will think (fill in the blank)…” …. “I … Continue reading Take the plunge! (with some sociological reference)
Last night my best friend and I went out for a girls night, which we have not done in almost a year! It was so necessary! We drank and talked and danced and laughed and ate! It was such an … Continue reading Necessity of Friends
Happy 2020. That’s wild! I am excited! New year new me? Not quite… New year– improving me! YES! Because if you aren’t improving yourself daily and growing daily then why the hell are you alive because you certainly aren’t living! … Continue reading Day 1