OK I’m back… and with even more tattoos…
My therapist says that I need to begin blogging again. Well we both agree that it is something that I should be doing, writing in general……… … Continue reading OK I’m back… and with even more tattoos…
Tag: healing
Toxic Tuesday 6/26/2018
It is Toxic Tuesday across the board and I thought I might video today but I just don’t feel up to it so with that being said here we are. 2 things— 1- Don’t let toxic people or their words, … Continue reading Toxic Tuesday 6/26/2018
I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
I haven’t been here in a while, seems to be my story lately. I have been productive just in other areas. But writing just seems to be on the back burner. I can’t bring myself to focus with the being … Continue reading I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
I need to be here way more often…
We ended up being able to spend a long weekend in my hometown and it was nice and really so very necessary. But then here we are. Back at this place. This house. The house we may lose before I even get to sell, which would mean we walk with nothing after this total shit show. I am feeling hopeless today. I move forward 2 steps and then get pushed back 10 steps instantly. I am grateful but like, not prepared to live in my car with 2 kids and 3 cats. Obviously I would never let that happen. I … Continue reading I need to be here way more often…
I guess I just need a moment…
Being alone has been something else. It has been so new and scary and exciting and peaceful. I certainly miss the 10 minutes of “me time” that I used to get every now and then and that no longer really exists for me until bed time every day. I am learning to become o.k. with this. Life has been moving so fast, probably mainly because the days have been moving fast. Now that my son is in his room every night at a decent time he is up in the morning early and whoa do I miss quiet solo mornings. … Continue reading I guess I just need a moment…
The Human Experience– Unfortunately.
The human experience– There’s levels to this shit. Happy. Sad. Amazing. Awful. Struggle. Ups. Downs. We have to experience the bad in order to appreciate the good and recognize the new. But it sucks when it’s bad, right? Especially when … Continue reading The Human Experience– Unfortunately.
It all starts with self-love!
If there is one major thing I would like to instill in my children and into others is that it so important to march to the beat of your own drum. Guess what? You only have one life. You should … Continue reading It all starts with self-love!
Some real stuff… truth hurts
Life was supposed to go back to normal today and as I typed that sentence I realize that is highly imaginative thinking, for sure. 11 days later. Fuck. I have been losing it because of my 2 year old son … Continue reading Some real stuff… truth hurts
this may be the night that my dreams might let me know….
So many things are going to change and I am not sure that I am ready. I am filled with sadness, right now. I feel so bad for him. After everything. I loved him no matter what. I feel like a fool. Full of dread. I just feel lonely and sad and confused and lost worthless And at the same time, feel like I am an unstoppable force capable of anything. I feel defeated and discouraged And yet somehow remain hopeful And I have no idea where that is even coming from. I feel betrayed and let down … Continue reading this may be the night that my dreams might let me know….
Re-post from 02/05/2018
Crazy how things have changed since I posted this. I know in the last 6 months I chose to thoroughly focus on myself and kids. and it worked out better than I ever thought it could. So my company (Rusnock Naturals) is spreading beyond handcrafted beauty and wellness products and I couldn’t be happier. Together we can learn new and healthier ways of getting through life whether it be meditation, exercise, coloring, self talk, healthier eating, overall healthier head space. I am working so hard at getting my body healthy that I also have been trying to focus on … Continue reading Re-post from 02/05/2018
Healing Haven 